But it wasn't about anything in the garden, it was about myself. It was one of those moments when something ultra sumple hits you over the head like a profound thought.
I like my garden. I mean that in a gushing, Sally Field award acceptance speech kind of way. I REALLY, REALLY LIKE MY GARDEN. It makes no sense really, as my year's work is flawed in so many ways: the stubborn weeds that keep coming back in droves that I can't keep up with, the overcrowding I am always guilty of creating by filling in too many areas I wrongly predict as what will later be huge gaps at the end of the growing season. I never get the spacing right! There's not enough contrast between pairings of things I've placed beside each other, and I'm too optimistic about not needing stakes until I end up out there making an embarassingly late staking effort with blooms that have bowed over to have their faces in the dirt. Oh, and there are many big gaps where I've anticipated huge success with things that have turned out darn spindly, and several areas I haven't even attempted to beautify. As a whole, it's a modgepodge of chaos when you step back and take it all in.
My garden gets few complements, and I conclude that there must be only a few out there who 'get' my garden. It's a labour of love that not all can appreciate. Despite all it's shortcomings and total flops, I really like the adventure of working on it. The year's few success stories include a bunch of delphiniums I raised from seeds I collected last year, the fruitfulness of my lupins that are only too happy to offer new seedlings as thanks for their stay, and my delight in discovering how nice lavender looks planted in between something I think is called Elephant Ears.. While watering this morning I got to thinking of all this when I was looking to see if the blooms on my newest Dahlias were open-I'm really looking forward to that. I'll reflect on the flops over winter, I'll remember some of the discoveries of this season while I'm at it, and I'll look forward to new wonders in the garden next season. I really enjoy my garden.